Refused Therapy from twochairs because I am "nuerodivergent" (ADHD, Autism, Gifted, and unverified TBI) *two MRIs with no significant damage found* NW Washington Kaiser Permanente Medicare Advantage

I am 38 and have been on disability for 5 years. I am feeling trapped and unable to secure a therapist, which leaves me feeling "broken". Finding out about my autism has provided some clarity, helping me understand my communication challenges. However, I faced emotional abuse, neglect, and trauma since childhood, leading to a lifetime of masking and coping mechanisms.

I had an adventurous life filled with travel and relationships, which often ended poorly due to meltdowns and burnouts. Around age 27, after dealing with divorce and burnout while working at a major company, I cut off everything and retreated to a cottage to understand my thought processes better. Tragically, I experienced a brutal assault that left me feeling detached from my body and constantly in fight-or-flight mode. This incident has reinforced my black-and-white thinking and mistrust of people in general. (In addition to losing all assets.. even being homeless for a short stretch.. without disability I would probably be dead in the country somewhere) *managed to get housing – health insurance etc via disability *

Despite craving deeper connections and having many hobbies and creative ideas, I feel paralyzed by guilt and shame tied to not being productive in society/classic sense.

I am frustrated with the American healthcare system's failure to provide adequate mental health care, especially for neurodivergent and trauma clients

I am awaiting for an official autism diagnosis "with weight" I am seeking advice, resources, and tools to help me move forward, understand my limitations, set realistic goals (under circumstances) and forgive myself. I wish therapy was available that isn't templated and offers real support to everyone, not just the popular/easier mental health challenges. I am sure I am on spectrum now in retrospect (with gained knowledge), but I am hoping a "weighty diagnosis" from a nuerologist may unlock additional options for treatment 🤞

Refusing therapy based on the information that a client is neurodivergent (and/or has endured a unverified TBI) is irresponsible and simply not unacceptable.

I appreciate any constructive thoughts, resources or direction. Advice Needed

Best,

Avery

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